Mr D

I am still on somewhat of a high since I managed to submit that final assignment. I honestly felt it was impossible. I haven't heard back from my lecturer to even say that she has recieved it, so already I am finding the negative voices in my head saying; "you know she won't accept it", "you should have written that section differently" or "will I even pass"? I need to snap out of it and think possitively.
The day before yesterday my husband, Mr D, managed to go to see our family Dr. He hads had swollen ankles since the day before christmas, and with his blood pressure problems I was worried. The Dr is unsure of what he has and is doing endless tests. I went to see her yesterday (for something completely different) and she cautioned me that Mr D is in for the long haul (till he gets better) and that she is refering him on to a specialist. He is still in a relatively positive mood, despite feeling exhusted. I pray that things get better and that the Lord won't remove him from my life for a long, long time. It seems that most of the men in my life the Lord has other purposes for and removes them one by one (my brother, my Grandy, my son,my Dad,and my Pop have all been taken from me and each time it has felt like I have lost alittle bit of me with them). I don't think I could handle another loss. Mr D says that I shouldn't worry but I can't help it. As we have talked today told I have found myself watching him more closely; watching the smile in his eyes and the cute frown he gets when he doesn't understand what it is that I am saying :o). He is my soul mate; the man that I would like to spend eternity with. He is one of the many blessings that I have in my life.